We are asked how we are doing countless times throughout the week. The answer is usually something like “we’re OK”, “managing”, etc. That’s all we can truthfully say. The pain is still present; the emptiness remains and the tears continue to come, sometimes without warning. We will never be great again. That’s not possible, at least not in the forseable future.
There is a change taking place, however. As so many people will agree, change is not easy. The change in our lives that we have experienced has not been easy; it will never be easy. I think the best way to explain our lives today is that we are learning acceptance. We are beginning to take baby steps to be able to accept that our lives have been forever changed. Do we like this? Absolutely not. Do we wish that we could wake up and realize that the events have all been a horrible dream? Of course. Unfortunately we live in the real world and not in a fantasy world.
What gives us comfort and strength as we travel the long road to acceptance is knowing that our daughter is safe in the arms of Jesus. How can we be selfish knowing that she is in a much better place that any of us are here on earth? God gave her to us to love and to cherish. We just didn’t know that our time with her would be so short. Remember that none of us know, so make every second count. To our wonderful son and his sweet family and to our precious Doug, we love you all so much and thank God for you everyday.
“For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.” 2 Corinthians 4:17-18